Stupid or not.
Dear Lord, I'm not sure if not saying my truth in fear of hurting the next person even if they drag me to hell's gate makes me stupid or not. I'm not sure if writing my feelings and not being able to say them out loud makes me stupid or not. I'm not sure if me choosing to uphold relationships despite my hurt makes me stupid or not. I'm not sure if crying it out before facing my demons makes me stupid or not. I'm not sure if taking all the bullshit thrown at me and always choosing to be the bigger person makes me stupid or not. I'm not sure if pouring into other people's cups even if mine is running almost on empty is stupid or not. I'm not sure if me loving the way I do after being let down so many times makes me stupid or not. I'm not sure if me trusting him with my life makes me stupid or not. I'm not sure if me believing people will wake up some day and decide to stop being selfish makes me stupid or not. I'm not sure if me believing