Dear Lord

Dear Lord, I wish I had a little control over the things that happen in my life. I wish I knew how to respond to every question that I ask myself. I wish I couldn't feel any emotions. I wish I could see into the future. I wish I could change people's stories. One sentence at a time. I wish I had control over time. Fly through it back and forth. I wish I had Cupid's bow and arrow. Get to enjoy umjolo. I wish life wasn't a maze. I wish music could not only make us dance but set us free. Give us wings. I wish I was confident enough not to bury the gifts I have but to use them to your glory. I wish I prayed more. Effectual fervent prayers that availeth much. I wish I didn't doubt your power at times. No matter how much the waves rise against me. I wish making the right choices was easier. I wish I didn't miss him this much. I wish the rain could cleanse our hurting land. I wish I only worry about things that matter. But again who by worrying has added a day to his l

  He left me out of breath with that kiss at midnight. Hehehe. Hello 2021. I am not sure if it's the way he looked into my eyes as he drew me close. Or. The way he whispered ‘happy new year baby' into my ears with his dreamy voice. Or. The way he made me dance with him when the band played Sondela by Ringo. Or. The way he was acting all possessive, like am his alone, and he don't share. Never. Ever. Or. The way he held my hand, like he will never. Ever. Let go as went to watch the fireworks display outside. Or. The way he kissed my forehead after tucking me in, in the early hours of the morning. Or. The way he left the painkillers. Two of them. Water and a cheesy ‘Rest. I'll bring supper. xoxo' note on my nightstand. I am still not sure what it is that made me send the text message. Fingers crossed. He has seen it. He is typing. He has stopped typing. Okay maybe he was disrupted. Recording. Yaaay! I prefer voice notes. Oh stops. Blueticks. Nothing. Two hours. Bluet